Now I remember

I remember now why I liked being fat, males left me alone! I want to be left alone thank you!
Today was the testing day from hell!!! I wanted to shove everything in my face to put on the kilos and cm without fail, drink the whisky, eat the chocolate, have McDonald's every day 3 times a day and eat every ice cream I see!
I spent more then half the day in the police station today and going over my story many times I am finding it very hard to talk about and even harder to deal with. I tried to be strong and to put a front up, a smile on my face but it is really hard!
A worker come to the house today to change the gas meter and electrical meter, and to cut a long story short it seems he was here for more then that, he decided it was appropriate to wrap his arms around me, place his head/face on my chest, grab my hands all the time and say to me "come on follow me we go upstairs" I could not push this "person" fast enough away I am sure my elbow bruised him, stupid me did not kick him out of the house and the reason being that it was going through my head "holy shit my house is going to blow up" as he had taken the gas meter off and some gas had to leak out of the pipelines and I was thinking, "guy about to get a knee in the balls? or house blowing up?"
When this whole ordeal was over he was leaving and I made fucking sure he had everything though he did mentioned he can come back, I think not!
On his exit of my private space called my house that he just violated he turned and said " I know where you live and I have your phone number" I felt my skin crawl. I am sitting on edge, my curtains are closed and tomorrow he is summonsed to the police station and will be arrested, This guy has lost his job because of what he has done and now I see his words as he was leaving as a threat, though I seen the words as the threat when it happened.
Tomorrow if I pull myself together I am going to the gym, I WILL be driving even though it is only a few meters down the road, Do you think I will be taking any chances seeing he is going to be at the police station just a few hundred meters up the road from my gym? I think not.
You monkey arse dirty perv who was walking around my house harassing me and walking around with an erection in my private area, you deserve everything coming to you, you have no right to invade my privacy, you work(ed) in the public sector, people trusted you to come into their houses, to do your work and to leave, that is what you are paid for, not to sexually harass people and make them feel uncomfortable and violated in their own fucking house, I do not know what on earth made you do what you did but I would love to hear some answers, if you even know them yourself, I will get strong, I will not let this affect me or imprison me, but do not cross my path, I will get over the scared stage and it will turn into the anger and frustrated stage as right now I am looking over what happened and thinking of " what if I done this or that" and believe me, cross my path and your hands will not be able to touch anything at all let alone another human and I promise you, you will never be able to have another erection in your life!
ok I vented, now I am going to get some rest, I need my strength