To Infinity and beyond!!

I do not know what step I am up to now with improving my life and health I just keep on going and utterly enjoying it. Yesterday was my first day at the gym, I gave my Personal Trainer everything I have eaten as I had been writing it down, he was not to impressed because I have not been eating enough, I did make sure I pointed out that it is A LOT more then usual seeing I never use to eat breakfast at all and that I am now, apparently I still need to be eating more for breakfast so I am adding a little tub of fruit yoghurt to the menu.

The last 3 days were depressing, I was really feeling down, having snacks at bad times of the evening, not that I think it helped that it was healthy! My head was clear my stress was down so figuring out the down depressing feeling was not actually to hard, it was my rest days, for three days I did nothing sportive because it was my recovery days before the gym, and did I need it !

Classy top, Black Dress pants and you guessed it, my stilettos, bag on my shoulder bottle of water in my hand, taking in a deep deep breath I took the stairs down to the gym knowing this is another big step in my life heading in the direction I want. Due to some of my phobias I actually had to get my personal trainer to take me to the change rooms, he is truly amazing, making me feel relaxed and not stupid, I was confident even though the usual me was still there, making all my silly jokes and "two meaning" answers **wink** if you know what I mean.
Although it was a great workout, I realised that my personal trainer will not be on my Christmas card list and the amount of times I threatened to kill him, I lost count.
All my issues of " I am to fat" "Everyone is looking at me" "I can't do this" "Eewww fat elephant sweating" all flew out the window. As I am in control of this, I am a butterfly in a cocoon, I am there to improve who and what I am I am confident, I am sexy and mothers lock up your sons because here I come. I enjoyed the gym, the atmosphere, the feeling, the workout, so much so that I joined up for a year, many people said "well I have done that once but lost interest in 2 months" well not me, it is also a great social circle for me and I will me loving it, I already met a lady who will be there 3 times a week and I have teamed up with her to meet her on the 2 days I do not have my trainer, if you pop into the gym you will see us, fat and skinny, but not for long it will be skinny and drop dead sexy (yes that's me the sexy one)
ohh and I am SOooooo feeling my muscles this morning!