me me me me me me me me YOU!

As I sit here with tears running down my face all I can think of is I FUCKING HAD ENOUGH!
Maybe when I get in these moods I look at things one sided, from my side, I try to express my feelings but it seems to fall on to deaf ears.
I am trying to hold my life together but all that seems to happen is it falls apart around me.
I have stress coming out my arse and it keeps getting worse!
MY POINT OF VIEW is, its about everyone else and the word "me" as in Tracey seems to be lost in translation.

At the moment my work is cleaning and I have damaged my shoulder, my left shoulder and I am left handed, I am meant to take it easy so the muscle can repair itself, I cant as I can not afford to take the time off work, even driving the car hurts my shoulder.
Then there is the cleaning in my own house which is endless and it seems I am the only one doing it, well 95% of it, no one sees me when I clean the house and cry from the pain in my shoulder.
I have the stress of all this court shit going on and everyone seems to think it is nothing and I cry myself to sleep most times over it.
Money is always a stress but nothing to cry about, money comes and goes, but not when the boyfriend totals the car and now we have no car, so I cant get to work, cant make the money cant visit my daughter.
Yes he is going to read this and get mad at me.
I am continuously crying my arse off, no one sees behind the curtain NO ONE wants to, even when I ask for help I get an automatic yes answer and no one comes of it.
No one seems to want to help me not even if it is to pick up a paper on the ground at home or to call my boss when I am to much pain to go to work, to make an appointment for me because I am to scared to call because of the language problem, Yes I still fear the language barrier, buying bread the other day the lady in the shop turned her nose up at me because I pronounced a word wrong I felt an inch tall.
I still fear many things but to others it looks like (to me) that after a week or so people forget my fears or worries, they think I am handling things perfectly and dealing with life, well THINK AGAIN.. Im not!
ok here is a hint to household members reading this.
I HAD ENOUGH, I AM ABOUT TO BREAK DOWN, I can't handle it anymore , I can't cry anymore I am ready to leave it all and yes RUN AWAY by myself, live alone, do it by myself, so help me out or I will be gone.
Turn these words around and twist them if you like, yes this is my point of view and my feelings maybe yours are different.
End of story.