October 19, 2006

101st entry and I am fuming MAD


I have really had enough of the ex and I hope that Santa has read my letter over what I want for Christmas! **crosses fingers**
I know now he is a total jerk as if I knew earlier I would have never married the stupid homosexual faggot, nothing against gay people some of my best friends are gay just don't want my husband to be gay it defeats the purpose!
The reasons for me hating him is getting more and more with every word from his mouth, for example:
Tonight while talking to my daughter on the phone she started whispering and said "Mum I am getting nightmares because Halloween is coming close" I asked her why is it giving her nightmares
She told me it was because Halloween is the night of the devil, I was already mad about that because I have told her for many years the meaning of Halloween and she has always loved Halloween til now, the first year she has EVER lived with her father. She continued to tell me that her father has told her it is the night of the devil and because of that she is having nightmares, so naturally I asked for the arsehole to get on the phone his answers to my questions were "no I didn't tell her Halloween was the night of the devil, what are you calling me a liar?" I said: "Well yes, as I do not see our daughter telling a lie about what she has heard. As I know you hate Halloween and all your efforts of taking away my traditions as an Australian/Canadian away from her". (I consider myself also Canadian so incase you read this arsewipe you can't run to everyone telling them I am full of shit as it is how I feel fuck face)
This stupid arsehole called my ex has tried to paint me black in my daughters eyes I am very lucky that she is smart and sees through it.
In the past he has tried to hide her communion from me
He has told her I do not love her (We all know this is not true)
She has been told from her grandmother she is NOT ALLOWED to tell me she loves me
They have told her I am the devils child (Well if I am the devils child what is my child? the devils offspring right?)
A sex addict (Boyfriend wishes it was true)
Got herpes (he also tried to use this to keep me with him, by the way I have NEVER had an STD)
English is a stupid language you should not talk it
Black people are all criminals
Handicapped people should all be killed at birth they are not normal.
Now I think he is running out of things to say. So now Halloween is the night of the devil.

I can see in the future I will be paying for a lot of therapy for my daughter all because of the things the family is saying to her over me and the rest of the world, I just do not understand why a "grown man"(in years) can not act like an adult and think of the welfare for his own child, she is not a toy or a pawn to sacrifice for the queen (his mum)
A man who is homosexual who is scared to tell his mother because of HER not his, strong catholic belief which has ALWAYS been a problem throughout our marrage because of me not being catholic. Seems Christian was not good enough.
I am so fuming mad I could bitch slap someone into next week with this anger boiling inside!
No winter here this year the temperature is way to high.

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