IF

Don't you just love the IF word ?
I am sitting here in my attic sweating my butt off in the heat making 2 necklaces as my best friend Jill is sitting in Florida learning Dutch on a website I gave her. (she is loving it.)
As we continue to talk over MSN I said to her "Sometimes I really wonder why I ended up in NL ... Why didn't I stay in Canada ? " Her answer to me was "Things happen for a reason"

I do agree but lets take some steps back for a moment,
IF I didn't move to the Netherlands, my daughter would still be living with me,
IF I didn't meet my ex I would not have a daughter,
IF I never went to Canada I would not have met my ex,
IF I didn't meet my ex I would not have met my best friend,
IF I didn't go to the U.S.A I would have never went to Canada,
IF I never discovered the internet I would have never left Australia to go to the USA to meet my internet friends,
IF I never worked with the military in Australia and met my boyfriend who had the internet.
then I guess I would still be a chef cook at the international Sheraton and hating every minute of it...

Yes everything happens for a reason, I love my best friend very much and My daughter is the reason I wake every morning.
Over the last 10 years since I have left Australia, many many bad things have happened to me but also some good with blessings thrown in , I have learnt to love myself for who I am and I have learnt getting even is not always the answer, I have found love, I have lost love, I discovered hope and then seen it vanish, I have cried, I have laughed, I have traveled vast lands and yet I have also stood still.
what IF ? ... IF... Tomorrow you don't wake up ? What was the last thing you thought when you went to sleep ? Was it a doubt, was it a "what IF ?"