Beached whales and elephants!

I am told to stop putting myself down..
Stop saying how ugly and fat I am... but you know what ? I Know I am am pretty and I like myself the way I am.
It hit me today the reason why I am always putting myself down and saying negative things about myself. It is not that I hate myself or dislike how I look, it is because everyone else around me is saying these things about themselves and I am just taking it in and repeating it!
For example, I know someone who is ever so handsome and they are very tall and well built, I hear him from time to time saying "oh I got to lose weight" one day I said him (yes it is a him) Do you know how handsome you are? He said no, yet only minutes before there was a group of 4 girls looking at him so obviously their jaws were on the ground and if they didn't stop looking they would have drowned in their own drool.

Another friend I have who has just lost more then 50kg (over 100 lbs) says "oh I am so fat" but when she was a lot bigger she never complained!
Someone else I know who has lost a lot of weight has some spare skin now and all I hear is how she thinks it looks ugly, she is always lifting her top around me and rubbing her tummy "oh Tracey it is all lose there is nothing there anymore" Ohh shove a cork in your cakehole will you!

I am surrounded by people who are lighter then me yet bitching, whining, complaining day in and day out about their weight, here I am sitting thinking "ok if they are so much skinner then me and they complain about their weight and if people see them as fat I must just be an elephant or a beached whale"
I get it into my head that I need to lose weight, that I am ugly and fat, that everyone looks at me because of it ..All because the people around me have self image problems that over time it has rubbed off on me!
Well these people are going to have to me pushed off my radar as I am not having it anymore, yes I am big, I am not willing to listen to you all bitch anymore, get out of my face shut the heck up and be happy with yourself, if you lose another kilo good for you but remember these 2 things,
1 I am happy for you, please tell me if you want to but stop rubbing it in, Oh I lost a kilo Tracey you lost any weight ? well no as I am not starving myself like you or on some new flash diet that when you stop your weight doubles!
2 do not complain around me I will slap you into next week, I do not need to be on a downer.. Think positive, look up.

So I have decided today I am going out, I am wearing something that makes me feel sexy a nice skirt , a string, matching bra, low cut top and I will feel and look great all day... Who knows I might just flirt too (sorry boyfriend lol) I need a self esteem boost and sadly they do not sell them in a can yet!!