March 20, 2009

My update

As I promised you all a "real life" update, here it is.
For some time now WaG's father has not been doing well, test after test we got no answers, he got medication to try to control the "thing" he had, yet they did not know what it was, it was a kind of "take a pain killer see me sometime later" We all had enough so time for more check ups and tests.
Dad's (Yes I call him dad as he is a dad to me and has been for years) birthday was March 5 and he was getting results from tests done, not the best day to get results. The results showed that dad has lung cancer and also LEMS (Lambert-Eaton Myasthenic Syndrome)a very rare condition so I guess that iswhy they never spotted it. The week after he had to get even more tests to see if the cancer had spread to the brain as what they found was confined only to the lungs. On the 13th which happened to be a Friday we got the test results that Dad has 2 tumours in the brain the following Wednesday (Wednesday just gone) he went into hospital for a 3 day treatment of chemo, the details of that I still do not understand, I listened to what will happen and how, but it is just all over my head. Tomorrow dad comes home from hospital we are unsure what time as he still has to have a chemo treatment, after that every Friday he has to get blood tests to see how his body is reacting, we are all hoping that chemo helps. As things stand now they give us 3-6 precious months with dad, if the chemo works it could be extended longer. No one really knows how long we all have left but I truly hope the doctors are wrong and he has many many years to go.
The last weeks have been a stress, I can not even put it into words and this weekend I have to try to explain to my 9 year old what is happening to her grandfather (Opa), it was only November when her Great Grand mother passed over, I do not know how she is going to react, I still do not know what to tell her, she sees Opa is sick but the rest... AARRGGGG I just do not know, I can not even think straight.

3 comments:

Naye said...

So sorry to hear this. What a hard diagnosis to deal with. I hope the chemo and treatment goes well.

Naye

. said...

I can't express in words how sorry I am that you and and your family have to go through this. You are never far in my thoughts.

Unknown said...

I'm so sorry you have to go through all this.

It remembers me when my dad was diagnosed.

I just told my 9 year old the plain facts, that his granddad had cancer and that the doctors would try to cure him, but that sometimes nature is far stronger.
But that love always stays, even when someone dies.

I told his teacher and she told the children in the class.
They made a book with drawings and well wishes, some for my son, and some for granddad.
It was so touching.

He was allowed time to stay away from school and go to his granddad when dad could take it.

Looking back that time was so precious, because my dad died a few months later.

I'm still grateful for what that teacher did for my son.

I can understand you're just lost... so many feelings and thoughts going through your mind.

Big huggss for you. I wish I could do more.