To BD

So what if I am falling again, If I can not hold myself together, Maybe I feel it is time I fell apart, maybe I need to feel wanted and loved and supported, I have that right I think maybe it is needed.
Why can't there be someone there to pick me up? or even to stop me from falling. All the progress I have been making and then a small set back that feels so huge because now I think I lost the plot.

I am very lucky there is a special someone who is keeping me strong, very much supporting me as my mind is a whirlwind of feelings, I know I should not say it like this but, whipping me back into shape and pushing me on the right path, "keep your eye on the mountain as that is in view longest" umm but BD do you realize that mountain has falling rocks? that's how this cobble stone path was made, and my darned stiletto's keep falling between the gaps and holding me in place. Yes I know these cobble stones I can step over them and then they are out of sight, I look up the mountain is there, I just need to get off the cobblestones
Ahhh is that what I am meant to see? keep walking on my toes to avoid getting stuck between the cobble stones, jump when I need to avoid falling rocks and at the top of the mountain enjoy the view? now put like this I can do!!
Mountain here I come **big breath in and soldiering on ahead**