Direction ?

So what direction is your life heading ?
Got any clue at all ?
Well I have no clue where mine is heading but I do know where I want it to end.
I am a lazy shit most of the times and the only effort I give in life in the thought and ideas but then the journey is way to much effort, well that is how I see it, when I ask friends they think I am doing way to much or to much stress on my plate to even think of the things I do.
For instance, I have now registered my business, trying to get my food in the door with selling my jewelry and also giving workshops, only problem is I need help doing the advertising in dutch as my dutch is shit, so recruit friends, it takes them MONTHS to do things when I am a now person, then I have the problem of thousands of dollars of supplies sitting here and unsure how I can claim them back through taxes or as company supplies, I found out a person I know is actually an accountant.. hello new best friend lol.
On top of this all trying to get out of debt and making things work I still have the same old shit in my life, ex has not suddenly dropped dead, still loads of legal crap going on there, daughter is still being thrown around like a rag doll (please Santa just 1 thing this year a bullet between the ex's eyes) then the all mighty and famous relationship problems, go with the heart or the head ? heck will go with the sledge hammer soon on someones head, then also the people who have nothing to do with your life or relationship that happen to get their foot in someone and end up running the fucking show when as stated above it is none of their fucking business!!!
why is it families always seem to know how to fuck up a good relationship ? and it is not even their relationship.
Anyways where am I heading ? in what direction ? straight to the nit house as I am on the edge of a cliff here and its bloody windy!!
on the bright side I am actually feeling better about myself and loads sexier the last few weeks (well apart from the pictures below!)
So I am sexy as ever, confident, confused,in love, stressed and standing on the edge of a cliff in a wind storm, did I forget something ?