Confusion Reigns Supreme

Confusion Reigns Supreme

What do I have to do to keep myself sane?
The confusion the love but mostly the pain,
the screaming the yelling the love and hate,
What have I done to deserve this fate?

Voice, memories, images a daze,
The tossing , turning wrong way in a maze,
My mouth I open to scream for it to stop,
No sound,no voice my head in my hand I sob.

The light of darkness is full of deceit,
Yet life goes over and repeat repeat repeats,
It is hectic and madness all rolled into one,
I just want to sit, sit still on my bum.

The pace yet to slumber the lights down low,
Look now it is time for a show,
A black and white film is ready to roll,
Distorting, skipping, crackles the sounds of my soul.

Back to the life where I look and a search,
What is to come of this? Why am I so cursed?
Security, love the smile on my face,
Wiped away , away without hast.

Hold onto the things that mean so much,
That was back in time, time in the past,
No feelings, emotions a cry without tears,
Yet is it life and awaken nightmares I fear.

To be held, protected,find happiness and love,
Not to much to ask seeing all of the above,
Then When I ask there is no one around,
So here I stay alone on the ground.

Looking, waiting baring the sounds,
Of the screaming, crying of madness around,
Rescued and saved protected, oh what a wish,
To live happily ever after what a never happening bliss